I'm home in Atlanta. Thank fuck. Lord willing and the crick don' rise, I will never have to back to Florida(please please please G-d). The funeral was...I gave the eulogy. When I wasnt giving the eulogy, I was livetweeting the funeral. I wish I was kidding but I'm not. If you're curious, search for #livefromthefuneral because oh my god it was just ( Read more... )

Today my mom called to get me the car because a friend of a friend I've been trying to meet for the 9 days I've been in S. Florida was supposed to come here so I could have someone to hang out with for a few hours. "Be so glad you're not with the family." My mother said. "Your uncle is fucking crazy. Your sister will tell you one day. It's a stress ( Read more... )

My grandmother is dead. She died at about 11 right around the time the Fall Out Boy show would've been closing which actually is a good thing as it will make getting a tattoo for her easier. I'll be able to use a lyric if I want. And hey! My mom called me by 12:30 and came and picked me up from the bar where I'd be watching the Blackhawks/Kings ( Read more... )

Some motherfucker thought it would be okay to plagerize my fic You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison. If you've known me since 2010 or before, you probably know how much of me and my early depression went into that story and the sequels because you were around for the process. If you knew me after, you know how proud I am of it because it ( Read more... )

I got my first ever official rejection email from a publishing company that was accepting queries. That's good though. Yes? You miss 100% of the shots you dont take. This was just a first shot, a first official block. Just a place to start. I will not let my mental illness and low self-esteem slow my roll. I am too good for that. I will have 100 of ( Read more... )

- I can has a job! I'm officially a substitute teachers. Mostly I tell 11-13 olds to be quiet, sit down, dont touch that, no you may not go to the bathroom, no i dont care what your teacher normally does because this is what we're doing today, no you may not work in groups, and if you're going to talk to me you can look me in the eye because thats ( Read more... )

Yeah, I rolled out this icon because it really was THAT BAD.

I just got home from what was undisputedly the most horrific thanksgiving week of my entire fucking life. Dont believe me? ( Click the cut. Seriously. I dare you )

Sometimes I think about Dolores and am just...stunned she's not in the world anymore. It's been just over 5 months. I just keep having these times when I'm blindsided by how deeply I'm effected. It knocks the wind out of me - what she did, how angry I am, how heartbroken, how bereft. I look at my family and wonder if they're okay - if they're ( Read more... )

Heya! In my effort to get back into the swing of journaling I thought I'd let yall know that my review for this weeks haven is up at Den of Geek. If you want to read it, it's up here. I wrote it on a 4 hour writing binge so by the time I was finished I was nearly high. Having these assignments are kind of amazing in terms of training and changing ( Read more... )

It's been just over a year exactly since I was first hospitalized for my mental illness. Sometime in the next month - I'll be officially discharging from Skyland Trail psychiatric treatment facility. I'm not a different person. I'm more the person I'm supposed to be ( Read more... )